Who am I?

Mighty fine question: middle-aged and trying to figure that out myself. I can give you general descriptors—The best I’ve got right now, Late diagnosed ADHD, hEDS, and a chronically ill baddie. Neurodivergent with C-PTSD, C-grief, and on a mental healing journey. I’m a survivor of more than anyone should have to, and it made me kind, but damaged. Business owner and forever student. Late in life out as pansexual and genderqueer/apathetic.

What am I going to provide for the reader/subscribers experience?

Still working that out. I detest putting myself in any kind of a box—much less trying to make content that is strictly one type or fits a niche, a narrow niche. Right now on the side that is a little more distanced, I am writing about rape culture, and the subcultures that feed into it and potential ways to dismantle rape culture using studies with positive results and some proven methods.

With Tiktok operating the way it has been lately with not so covert, obviously bullshit methods of suppression, you’ll be seeing a lot more of my focus over here likely. Even though none of you actually read or interact. I encourage engagement. Not many of my TikTok followers will follow me over here…—I could be free knowing that nobody is looking, who knows what this troubled mind might post.

I don’t know what people want to read and I don’t know what brings people comfort anymore as that is some thing I no longer enjoy. Open to suggestions as I have not a bloody clue what I’m doing here. I have failed every other social media and somebody told me to try this and they don’t have time for shit, we’ll see.

You may get complete nerding out on whatever my hyperfocus or think du jour may be that day or that week. More than likely commentaries on the state of the world, social issues, with brief side quests into music related content.

Currently, you’ll find three sections that all subscribers are automatically subscribed to. You can opt out of receiving notifications on any of the subsections you wish using your Settings menu. You will notice the main umbrella is Meandering Muse—they are currently two subsections—one focused on music and one focused on mental health.

Music has saved my life on multiple occasions, and music has been there through all the ups and downs..Naturally I would have a section to explore and share music! Music Meandering will feature album and song reviews, including retrospective pieces.

Mental Health Meandering will focus on a few topics related to mental health. Another series that will be featured in the Mental Health Meanderings is something I’m going to call “Unsent Unknown”. This will be short format and frankly: It's messages to people who will never see them.

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